This morning drive with the kids was great. First right before dropping off Savannah, she spotted a garbage truck. We all screamed and I tried to get away from the Trash Monster, as we call it.
After dropping Savannah off, it was just Sienna, Ryan, and me. I put on her favorite song (Katy Perry’s Hot & Cold) and sang at the top of our lungs til we go to Grandma’s house. Si and I were belching out the notes while Ryan was working his groove thing in his car seat. Can we say priceless!?!??!
Needless to say, we were all pumped. I love my kids. They have a way of making things better and putting a smile on my face.
The past couple of days I have had a lot on my mind. So I am not my usual annoyingly positive self. I realized that I need some self-motivation. I need to feel on top again. I need to feel strong and confident. I can’t let people strip that from myself! Hell to the No! So I looked for some handouts on the internet … where else? YOUTUBE!!! Yeaaaahhhhh!
I remembered this small tidbit. And instantly I felt my mood lifting. I remembered … I’m da Boss.
And I was like Hell Yeah, I am da Boss. Always has been. I pity the fool for thinking otherwise. And then I was feeling like 30% better. A new outlook was forming in my mind. I was on the right path. Then I saw this video … and I was needless to say … pumped!
Thats right people Shut the fuck up! Hey Natalie said it! So it’s clearly ok!
I was now super high, super pumped. I was ready for a fight. I was ready for crap to go down. Cause that’s it! I am a strong woman! Or…. so I want to be.
After yesterday’s post and my comments, I realized that part of the part of the problem is me. I never push back. I don’t have a line drawn. I don’t have a limit on how much crap I can take. Am I too nice? Ewww, I know right. No no the problem is I don’t stand up for myself. I need to!
So that’s it! I am not gonna be miserable at others expense. I am still gonna be nice but I need to be strong as well. Thanks Natalie. Thanks Andy Sandberg! Talk about our youths’ inspirational leaders!
So I was feeling really awesome last night. I saw the horizon. The dawn of a new era! And then I saw this …
… and well now I am just totally confused.