Today is one of those that is just gonna draaaggggg. Man I could sure use some ribs right now. There is something wonderfully awesome of getting your face all smothered in yummy goodness. I need to start making some beforehand, ziplock them, and carry them in my purse whenever I need a quick pick me up. Man, I love me some ribs!
Nothing much happened this weekend. We went to a birthday party. It kinda sucked for me because I knew no one, but the kids enjoyed themselves . It was really an employee that Gus and I work with party (well more like Gus works with him more than me) and so Gus talked to him and I just watched the kids and well, chilled. It’s funny cause there was a time I was so freaking outgoing. Annoyingly outgoing to be quite honest. If the old me was out there, I would have made friends with everyone and would have talked up a storm. Laughing, joining in conversations etc.
I think I have changed. I was so bouncy and people were always saying I was such a social butterfly. To think about that now … uhhh, it gives me headache now to be that perky. I think I have become more lazy. Don’t get me wrong. I am still nice and if I do notice a girl sitting by herself I may make my way over there to carry a conversation. I do think about others that are alone. But for the first time ever, I can say I don’t mind being by myself. And that is a big step for someone who could not handle being alone. I guess you can say I am comfortable in my own skin. I think having kids had a lot to do with it. I think it gave me a nerve I never had. I can’t explain it but now I just don’t give a hoot on who or what. And it’s so liberating to drum to my own beat. It would have been nice to be this laid back in high school cause I could saved my self a large amount of stress but I am happy it came before I turned 50. Now I just gotta work on not being to laid back where I let things roll off me. I would like to be more blunt with my feelings, more forthcoming. I do notice that I do let people say mean things to me and I don’t come back with an answer back. It’s not that I am frightened or scared , it’s just that I am to slow. To slow in realizing its an insult and to slow with a comeback. I think my laid backness has affected my reactivity. I am a slow reactor. Gus has referred to me as a hippie. Those were good years!
Today is my first day back since my vacation. I miss picking Savannah up. I have left that duty to my parents and I am not happy with it. I hope they pick her up on time. I will be plenty pist if they don’t. I should have taken a picture of all the work that was left here for me on my desk. I could have swam it!I should take it as a warning to never go on vacation again or my desk with get it! My work pile keeps getting larger and I am reminding myself not to stress my self out to finish it all in one day. It’s a weeks worth of work! So I am doing what I can.
My new goal is to be freshly pressed. I still have no idea what I am doing on this WordPress thing. It’s complicated to me. I am slowly learning. Slow. That word again. But I will one day will write a blog so beautiful it will make birds sings, women cry. And then after that, all my other blogs with be stupid and pointless and I’ll stop posting all together cause I would have reached my goal and I can just stop posting all together. Just kidding. I need to annoy someone. So I’ll stay on. I’ll be the drivel between the hilarious, important, and moving blogs.